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Thread: R.I.P.
My Condolences to you and your family, words can't really express how you must feel....
Awik wrote:
On Aug. 20th, 2004 I would like to say rest in peace to my unborn child who was 3 months old. Cause of death is still unknown.....
Doctor said it's heart stop beating.....and motion was not detected....
I dont know why i'm writing this, maybe i'm hoping someone out there that cares...
This is very devastating to me because, I was really prepared to be a first time father. But life is never what u expected....
This letter is hoping no one goes through what I went through...
With this experience, I could not imagine how someone that has lost a grown son or daughter, would feel like......
I'm also posting here, because i check this board everyday.
Message Edited by Awik on 08-21-200407:47 AM
Fighting for the empire 24/7 
Awik wrote:
On Aug. 20th, 2004 I would like to say rest in peace to my unborn child who was 3 months old. Cause of death is still unknown.....
Doctor said it's heart stop beating.....and motion was not detected....
I dont know why i'm writing this, maybe i'm hoping someone out there that cares...
This is very devastating to me because, I was really prepared to be a first time father. But life is never what u expected....
This letter is hoping no one goes through what I went through...
With this experience, I could not imagine how someone that has lost a grown son or daughter, would feel like......
I'm also posting here, because i check this board everyday.
Message Edited by Awik on 08-21-2004 07:47 AM
Damn i sit looking at my screen just wondering the feeling i would have if that happend to me.... All i can say is keep the chin up.. the pain will decrease day by day, week by week, year by year...But Things happen for reasons.. We might not like the action but they are done....... If you choose to fight this feeling it will make you stronger and a better person than you were before the tragidy..
I do remeber when i lost my father at the age of 11... MAn it killed me inside for years...the unknowing why ect....Then i met this old guy when i was 13 years old.. He saw my crappy attitude ect and ask why i was such a hater of life.. I told him my story.. I expected him to act like everyone else. Saying oh im sorry ect .. you know the normal nicities.. but he hit me with another perspective... My father died for a reason we might not know or understand now. but later we may.. But his question to me was why was i letting that loss kill my future and my love of life ect.. hell i was 13 life is good at 13....right...What we go through will make us who we are but we control the out come.. good or bad.... Find strength in your self ana way to fight and see the light in life again.. I can guarantee that if you try everyday to be positive you will come out of the blackness.. and one day you will find the answer your heart is seeking.... But only when you find yourself first...
Well I hope you understand were i went with this.. My heart is with you and your family..There is strength in them and dont push them away.. Bring them closer to your heart and you all will heal.....
pm me if you have questions well met ...
my sympathies to you and your family.
god bless.