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I've been thinking about how the NGE makes me feel, and this is the best way I can think to describe it. (and, no, this is not jedi specific but I consider this my "home" board)

When I first heard about a Star Wars online role-playing game over three years ago I was beyond excited. I religiously read the forums for news. The concept that I could freely take part in the Star Wars universe was intoxicating. I had to buy a whole new computer just to play this game, but that did not deter me. I was driven to be a part of this community. The name associated with the game, and my nostalgia of mid-1980's, nearly inarticulate plastic action-figures got me fired up to record levels. After installing the game and logging in for the first time I found that my expectations were more than met.

While sitting in my soon to be born daughter's room, I ran around Tatooine and was amazed at the complexity of the game. 32 professions. armor. weapons. resources. They literally thought of it all. The best part was, there were zero restrictions. If I wanted to be a character who crafted statues and skinned lizards, I could. If I wanted to be combat to the core and armor up to fight, I could. Of course I still couldnt ride a swoop so there was a lot of running involved, but thats beside the point =) Good things were happening, and better things were on the horizon. The sky was the limit.

Fast forward until my first born daughter, Penelope, is walking, and on the verge of forming sentences. My Bothan has seen the coming and going of guilds. He has seen the explorations of space and dungeons of Dathomir. He has walked three thousand meters on the day player cities were born, to stake out a plot of Nabooian beach land with a few close friends. This was the game I loved. I learned it was all changing once and I rolled with it. But now, I feel I no longer have the options to do whatever I please. I am no longer a character in a universe, I am simply a player in a game, and my identity has been stripped.

If I attempt to analogize what has happened, it goes as follows: One day I finally get to talk to the girl whom I have had a serious crush on since childhood. She digs me, and before I know it I'm spending all of my time and money on her but never caring about anything other than how happy she makes me. We spend two years together, and the thing that always amazes me is how she is unlike any of the other girls I see every day. They all compete to be the prettiest, most popular, most wanted girls in the neighborhood, while mine is content that she has an identity and a personality that cant be duplicated.

Then, for a few months she goes away. I promise to wait. I miss her but get used to the new relationship. Finally when she comes back she has tanned her skin, dyed her hair blonde, and had all sorts of implants and injections designed to sex her up. Sadly enough she is now just one of the others.

Shes pretty to look at, and its true I may just like it if I try it, but all of the mystery is gone. The things that made her special have been sacrificed to make her "easy" and "accessible" So, I really feel its time to break up.

Maybe you guys will understand, maybe not, but this is how I feel =) thanks for being my cathartic exercise.

cool! now u'll know what a **edit** feels like

jp with ya man lol

heh way to analyze it, creatful. i like it and understand where you come from. I feel the same way

wow... mind if i catch her on the rebound? ROFL i had to lol

I feel your pain my friend but i am going to try it before i judge it, as it stood this game was slowly dying and this is really thier last chance to save. i too have been a fan since 25 may 1977, and i am not yet ready to break away from it

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dubiousmastax wrote:
I've been thinking about how the NGE makes me feel, and this is the best way I can think to describe it. (and, no, this is not jedi specific but I consider this my "home" board)

"blah blah blah" "yada yada"

Maybe you guys will understand, maybe not, but this is how I feel =) thanks for being my cathartic exercise.

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Dude maybe you should sell your computer. Buy some clothes, meet some chick and get laid.

but also, that is a great analogy... it really puts it into perspective when u look at it like that

That pretty much sums it up for me as well as i'm sure many other players as well.

Message Edited by JitanPren on 11-03-2005 11:10 PM

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docRootbeer wrote:

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dubiousmastax wrote:
I've been thinking about how the NGE makes me feel, and this is the best way I can think to describe it. (and, no, this is not jedi specific but I consider this my "home" board)

"blah blah blah" "yada yada"

Maybe you guys will understand, maybe not, but this is how I feel =) thanks for being my cathartic exercise.

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Dude maybe you should sell your computer. Buy some clothes, meet some chick and get laid.

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so, you missed the me having a daughter part? its cool, reading may not be your thing...

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dubiousmastax wrote:

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docRootbeer wrote:

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dubiousmastax wrote:
I've been thinking about how the NGE makes me feel, and this is the best way I can think to describe it. (and, no, this is not jedi specific but I consider this my "home" board)

"blah blah blah" "yada yada"

Maybe you guys will understand, maybe not, but this is how I feel =) thanks for being my cathartic exercise.

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Dude maybe you should sell your computer. Buy some clothes, meet some chick and get laid.

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so, you missed the me having a daughter part? its cool, reading may not be your thing...

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Good then, maybe your daughter will be happy to have her Dad back.

woah... i cant believe they censored the word for a female genitalia... whats so bad about that word? its in medical books and such lol